(Ephesians 1:11-13) - Our Identity should steam from whose we are not what we do…
For a long time I’ve been a Mum, (my youngest has gone to uni) a privileged job to be sure, but Mum is who I’ve
been and who I am is feels kinda packaged in what I do. Like the role of wife, teacher, leader, counsellor, speaker, – these roles have required me to do
something which for me has shaped who I am. My dreams put on hold till ‘someday’
because I was needed, but now it’s just me needing me and I’m not sure what I
need!
For the last some months now I’ve been praying for direction
and purpose, I can but hope I’m going in the right direction. However if we’re
really honest, the not knowing aspect of life can birth fear so that on
occasions we freeze and ‘wait on the Lord’. I know I can be such a spiritual Woose! … We
all have a basic need to belong, to be accepted and loved I really don’t want to
be rejected by God. In my head I know ‘He will never leave me or forsake me’
but because at times I forget what I mean to God, the reality of His word
escapes me completely. I forget the price He paid for me. I forget the times God’s shown His faithfulness and bailed me out of another fine mess! You see guys, we can acclimatise to our setting, just going through the motions, being defined by what we do. This
breeds a false reality because we are more than what we do.
I guess this year I’m embarking on becoming ‘the me’ God
created me to be. It takes a conscious effort to set aside what we assume others
expect of us, keeping it simple. Just pondering - who I am to God? What does He
have to say and what is it He wants of me? So here’s what I’m gonna try and do. I’m going to accept this new situation - perhaps rather than feel bereft at my
loss of identity I can carve out (with God’s help) something new, something
useful and pleasing. There are new adventures to be had, new experiences yet
untapped. Perhaps this time of change is
the best thing that’s ever happened to me yet! Perhaps it's time to dust off those daft dreams and ponder the possibilities knowing I can relax and trust I’m
ok, me and God are good and we can do this new thing together… whoever I become
and however that might look.
Hugs Ruth x
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